Back in September I wrote about this being my last year of teaching at Gustavus.It's February, and half of my time has run out; only one semester remains. Again I have to decide upon three objects to bring to class the first day --tomorrow--that represent where I am in my life. This time it's the last time, and I feel good that it's the last time. Here's my plan:
1. My incomplete Seven Stories Project. This is a writing project my students have done nearly every semester. It started as family stories and now it is the answer to the question, "If you had to tell about your life in only seven stories, what would those stories be?" It's an impossible task for me to complete with only seven stories, but I'm going to try to have it in some form of "finished" by May 18. It's not too hard to figure out that the project is supposed to be symbolic of my life, but I don't like to follow rules, so there will be more than seven stories and they will be about lots more than just me!
2. A rock that has Remember carved into it. Two friends gave it to me after Grandma Bene died. Right now it sits in the living room in front of the photo I have of Molly on the beach. My memories of eleven years teaching at Gustavus are mostly good ones. Well that's a lie. I might have to make up something to work this one in.
3. I haven't decided on the third item yet. I'm leaning toward a book I have called If... which is filled with "what if" types of questions. You know... "If you had to choose a room in your house to live in that you could never leave, which room would it be?" or "If dogs could make peanut butter sandwiches, would you eat one?" This book makes me realize there are many ideas I've never thought about thinking about, much less doing, like eating a peanut butter sandwich made by a dog, for one. Sounds messy. If I choose the book, it will represent the what-ifs waiting out there after the spring semester is over, my office is cleaned out, and I have no income. Maybe my third item should be a bottle of booze instead!
As much I love teaching and as much as I'll miss it, I'm not feeling sentimental about tomorrow being "the last first day" (thank you, Mary, for that phrase). There are reasons to be done with this job that would sound cranky and not very kind-hearted if I were to describe them here, so I won't. Even though I'm not misty-eyed, I do have butterflies in my stomach, the same as I've had the night before every first day of every semester since I've been at Gustavus, and every first day of my teaching career. It still feels new.